8. Someone for Somebody
DoBH – DN2 20s
February 10th 2024
I was nobody,
I met nobody and became two bodies.
Thought we could transform into somebody.
How naïve—
Two loneliest bodies
Searching for purpose in each body.
How bleak.
You unveiled myself to me,
Yet there was no ladder to reach within.
Afraid of my own silence,
Lonely by myself,
I needed to meet my self,
From the beginning—
A perfect creation,
The foundation of my design.
I’ll be ready when I no longer depend on you.
I can’t be with you unless I am with my self.
Lonely in your arms,
Cold in my own bed.
Our worth is not determined by the hands of another.
Your ego isn’t mine to soothe,
And my body isn’t yours to pacify.
I am unwell, and you only exacerbate it.
You can’t save me;
I don’t want to be saved.
I don’t need anybody to become somebody.
To be somebody, I must embrace everybody.
I need myself in unity—
Today, I choose myself.
I conclude before I commence,
This fresh start:
Reconnect, spirit to spirit,
Rebuild my body to mind.
Restore all into one, trinity—
Someone to give, to give to you.
Elevate my body’s significance—
A sun unto myself.
Together, we may form constellations,
And you would value my warmth.
My radiance remains, even without your own,
An ember enough for us both,
I shine, whole, unbroken, enough.
You would be a fool to forsake something as good as this.
Deborah Nyamu,
DoBH,
